Lenten Thoughts – Forgiven

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“Your sins are forgiven.” (Luke 7:48)

Have you ever wondered what it would have been like to be face-to-face with Jesus when He said those words? Your sins are forgiven.

These words provide freedom from the chains that bind us. Jesus said them to the woman who anointed Him with oil (Luke 7). He said them to the the paralytic lowered through the roof (Luke 5). And when we come to Him, He says those words to us too.

I like to imagine meeting Jesus and hearing those words. “Your sins are forgiven.”

I imagine that it is like a wild animal being returned to its natural state of being, free in its habitat.

I like to imagine that it’s like one of scenes from The Voyage of the Dawn Treader by C.S. Lewis. Specifically, the part where Eustace is desperately trying to return himself to human form. He longs to be how he’s supposed to be. But he can’t do it himself no matter how much he scratches and pulls at his skin and scales. He can’t free himself from the form of a dragon.

We cannot free ourselves from the chains of sin by our own power. This I believe with my whole heart. It takes the Great Lion coming and breaking those chains (or in Eustace’s case, stripping the layers of skin) to free us. It is how He shows us that we are forgiven.

When Aslan strips Eustace of his dragon form and returns him to his human state it’s like he’s saying “your sins are forgiven, go and sin no more.”

When Eustace was freed from his dragon form, he was free to trust Aslan and do His work. When Jesus says that our sins are forgiven, we are free to return to our calling to glorify God.

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This is exactly what the paralytic man did. “Immediately he rose up…and departed to his own house glorifying God” (NKJV) or, as the amplified version reads, he “went away to his house, recognizing and praising and thanking God.” (Luke 5:25)

Being forgiven allows us to come alongside Paul in saying “forgetting what lies behind [all that has been forgiven] and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 3:13b-14)

Because Christ has forgiven me, I am free to forget the past and free to strive for the day when I get to meet Him. I am free to press on in the calling He has placed on my life. I am free to love and I am free to forgive.

*Written for Park Place Church of God

Those Days…Be Still

Some days just seem to start out wrong. You know, the ones where you sleep badly or you miss your alarm in the morning and end up running late. Or the days that you happen to be extra forgetful.

Or maybe, you spill your coffee on your favorite dress. Or discover that you don’t have any money until payday and have to make do with what you have.

The days when, 3 hours in, you’re ready to throw in the towel, climb back into bed and ignore the rest of the world.

Those days when all you want to do is scream at everyone and everything. Or curl in a ball and cry.

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Those days when you ask God “WHY?” Even if it’s just something small, you just want to ask Him why it had to happen to you today of all days.

You have a decision: give up and sit on you “pity  pot” OR let go of your day and place it in God’s hands.

“Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10

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If you choose the second choice, then let go of your little problems from the morning, take a deep breath, say a little prayer, and trust that God has that day in His hands.

Take a moment to be still in God’s presence on those days to remind yourself of His promises.

  • He loves you. Nothing can separate you from His love. (Romans 8:38-39)
  • He is always there. Just open your eyes and mind to His presence for He isn’t leaving. (Deuteronomy 31:8)
  • He provides for you needs, and often your wants. (Matthew 6:32)
  • Call on Him and He’ll deliver you from your troubles. (Psalm 50:15) Maybe just not the way you’d do it.

These are just a few of His promises. They are reasons why we don’t have to worry about those days. These promises pave the way for us to open our hands letting go of these problems and allowing God to provide peace.

Some days are harder than others. If you don’t let go of the troubles, they follow you from day to day. So just let go of those days. Learn to be still and let go.

Note: The second picture is from 5minuteswithjesus.com and was used with their permission.

Panic Sets In

Tingles crinkle through my skin

making hairs stand at attention

straining away from the surface

and creating little mole hills

all over my arms and back

Stomach twists like mountain roads

up and down and through a tunnel

jumping up to my heart

dropping down to my toes

my Judas Iscariot stomach

Plans blasted away by fate’s cannon

i grasp at the last threads of my plans

as darkness slams in dragging my soul

to the depths of confusion created by

Master Panic, disturber of my peace

When Comes Twenty-One

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When comes twenty-one

Comes fighting for dreams

And finding oneself

In the swirling cycles of life

 

When comes twenty-one

Comes stretching of wings

And scraping of ego

Against  your stubborn will

 

When comes twenty-one

Comes starting at bottom

And building sturdy

A foundation of success and praise

 

When comes twenty-one

Comes leaving of safety

And learning again

The comforting power of prayer

It’s Been A While

It’s been a while…since I last posted to my blog. Life gets busy, and sometimes I forget that posts don’t have to be long and deep.

It’s been a while…since I’ve last seen some of my good friends. Friends who make my stomach ache from laughter, who bring joyful tears to my eyes, who hug me tight so I know I’m loved.

It’s been a while…since I last went on a long drive for the joy of it, for the purpose of going on an adventure.

It’s been a while…since I’ve had the time to indulge in the things I love. Things I love like reading a book all in one sitting, going on long nature hikes and taking pictures, doing a photo shoot with friends for the joy of taking photos with my camera.

It’s been a while…since I’ve seen my family. I miss their laughter, their noise, their food. I miss the little adventures we went on. Trips to the apple barn to buy boxes of apples, laying out at night to watch the stars, raking up huge piles of leaves just to jump in them.

It may have been a while…but that doesn’t mean I’ve given up on it. It doesn’t mean that I don’t like it anymore, that I don’t want to see them. Sometimes it’s just the way life is. A time for everything and everything in it’s time, right? So, yes…it’s been a while and it may be a while longer, but I will do these things again, see these people again because I love them. It may be a while longer, but that’s okay.

Pressing on…The Road Goes Ever On and On

Join me on a journey? A journey to the mountains? A cross-country trip? Like Bilbo Baggins, “I want to see mountains again!” Can you see them? Their tops hidden in the pinkish fog and the sun peaking through as it rises above them? The closer you get, the bigger you realize they are and how small you are. Can you feel the mountain air? Are you ready for a challenge? The path is there before you. It’s marked by little orange strips of paint on nearby rocks or trees so you don’t lose your way. It looks pretty smooth from where we stand. I’ve been here before; I know where it leads and that it isn’t as smooth as it looks. There’ll be downed trees, huge holes, lots of rocks and sticks, plenty of bugs, and beauty all around enveloping us in the sincerity of the mountain forests. We set out excited and full of energy and ready for the challenge set before us…

Do you remember how your journey with God started? Do you remember the time when you awakened to God and His journey like no other? You may have been dragged, bribed, or persuaded into it – like Bilbo being offered a contract to go on an adventure to far off countries. Maybe your parents took you to church – forced you, bribed you, promised that you could go on that youth trip to Gatlinburg if you behaved in “big church”. In the end, it was still your choice. Or maybe you volunteered – begged to go to church or mission trips, yearned to go learn more about Jesus. Maybe you were like the dwarves who volunteered for the trip to save their homeland, to go meet their destiny. At some point, something in you clicked. You understood what Jesus did for humanity or experienced God’s love or witnessed a miracle. Somehow, someway, you made a choice to join God on His journey to save the world. You were excited, ready to take on the world, go on mission trips, spread the Gospel…you stood at the beginning of the path and said, “OK God, I’m ready. Let’s go…”

Half a mile into the hike we meet our first obstacle…a huge tree that has fallen across the path with no way past except over or under. Which way to go? Going over could result in a fall; it’s a pretty big tree. We may not fit under the tree. Either way there are risks, small though they may be. Imagine we help each other climb up and stand on top of the tree. It’s bigger than we thought, but we figure out a way to climb down. We made it! We decide we can’t go further without taking a breather first. As we continue, we encounter other challenges…a creek crossing, steep inclines, dropoffs on one side, a rock on the side of the mountain we have to navigate around without falling…We find ourselves hot, tired, and slightly battered. You know, we’ve got a couple of scrapes from climbing over trees, maybe a sore knee from a fall, or some wet clothes from a fall in the creek. Despite the falls, trips, and stumbles, despite being tired and perhaps grumpy, despite being dirty, smelly, and thirsty/hungry we keep pressing on. Why? Because the path hasn’t ended yet, we haven’t made it yet. So we keep going, following the path on and on “over rock and under tree, by caves where never sun has shone, by streams that never find the sea; over snow by winter sown, and through the merry flowers of June, over grass and over stone, and under mountains of the moon” (from The Hobbit).

Life is like that sometimes. We keep going, celebrating the victories and pushing on after disappointments and struggles. Sometimes it feels like we’re falling apart…we don’t have the strength to climb over that “tree”, that obstacle in life. Sometimes you feel like you just can’t “hike” anymore. You want to give up…but something inside you gets you back up and on the path. Maybe you get distracted by a side path, maybe you can’t find the “marker” and are afraid you’re lost, or maybe you leave the path on purpose. Life has plenty of distractions. Maybe it’s something that the path goes through.

There is a trail in South Carolina that goes up into the mountains and passes through this lovely rock layout with water splashing down from above and it looks out over the valley. It’s a breathtaking spot. I could stay there for hours. But the thing is, that’s not my destination. There are more challenges ahead, a steeper incline, more dangerous obstacles…but at the end – my destination – is an even more astonishing view. You cross over a bridge and walk around a corner of the mountain. And there you see it, the water piles up into a pool that you can bathe in with rock platforms spread out on both sides of the stream where you can rest in the sun, eat your meal, rehydrate, and take in the view. It’s such a satisfying moment – knowing that you hiked high into the mountain, maybe you defeated a fear of heights or of strenuous activity; these are fulfilling on a deep level.

How much more fulfilling, more freeing, more breathtaking will it be when we reach our heavenly destination? How will it feel? Looking back at what you had to sustain, at the falls you took, the stumbles and trips, the distractions you allowed to lead you astray…they all pale in comparison to having made it to your destination. You followed Paul’s example, “But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 3:14). You kept going. You followed the path that God pointed out to you until you reached the place He set aside for you.

My friend, I leave you with more of Tolkien’s poem spoken through Bilbo and, I hope, some encouragement for the times when you are recovering from one of life’s falls, stumbles, trips, or distractions.

“The Road goes ever on and on,
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.

The Road goes ever on and on
Out from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
Let others follow it who can!
Let them a journey new begin,
But I at last with weary feet
Will turn towards the lighted inn,
My evening-rest and sleep to meet.”

Dear friend, whatever you are going through…please don’t give up. Hold on. It’s okay to not be okay sometimes. It’s good to rest. The road continues before you. Are you going to continue down this path laid out before you?

Choose Now – The World’s Lies or God’s Truth

Waves of depression settle into your heart. The voices are coming back - speaking lies, voicing doubts, planting seeds of disarray...

"You are worthless. Nobody likes you. They think you're ugly and unfashionable. That's why you don't have that 'special someone.' You'll never be as attractive as her. You'll never match his strength. Even that dog has better hair than you. You're not 'strong and independent' like you think you are. You're weak. You're pathetic. You don't measure up to the standards of the world! You don't measure up! You're not smart enough. You're not fashionable enough...not athletic enough, not artistic enough, not pretty enough...You don't measure up. You're too skinny. Too fat. Too tall. Too short. You do not measure up to the perfection you see around you. Perfect people with their perfect clothes and lives; they look down on you. They judge you. They wipe their feet on you like a dirty doormat. You're disgusting and unlovable. Not even God loves you. Why would He forgive you and take you in when that guy over there is doing so much better than you?! Why love you when that girl obviously loves Him more than you do?! God doesn't love you. You've sinned too much. You keep going back...sinning over and over and over...you've dug you're pit too deep and no one is coming to save you. No one, not even your Creator, love you because you are repulsive in too many ways!!"

"Silence!..." 

The commanding voice of the Creator breathes into your very being.

"Be still..." He extols, "and know that I AM God.

"YOU ARE LOVED. Do not listen to these deceiving voices. Listen to My Word. Block out all other voices and listen to Mine. Be still that I might speak and restore order to your soul."

"I love you! I sent My Son to die for you. You are forgiven and loved by My grace through your faith in Me when you believed in My Son. Why do you let these troubles disturb your peace? Why are you downcast? Hope in Me and I will save and restore you. I knew you before you were formed in you mother's womb. I knew you before you thought of me. I have loved you longer than you think possible. Do not be afraid or discouraged when times of trial come your way for I AM with you. I will not forsake you. If you draw near to Me, I will draw near to You. Resist the devil and he will flee from you because of Me. I AM here to protect you. You are my child, a child of the King of Kings. You are a member of a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for My own possession. This world is your temporary home. I have saved you a place in heaven, but in the mean time..."

"YOU ARE FREE. Free from condemnation. Free from damnation. Free from the evil one, free from fear. You have been given a spirit of power and love and a sound mind. Do not be afraid. Nothing can separate you from My great love. I have established you. I have anointed you. I have sealed you. You are My holy temple and I dwell within you. Why then should you be afraid? All things work together for your good because of Me. You are complete in Me. You are hidden in Me. In your time of need, I AM extending you grace and mercy..." 

"Will you take it? Will you take the step of faith necessary to get out of the downpour and under My Wings? Will you let Me - your Creator, Father, Friend, Savior, Sustainer, King, and Lord - cover you with My grace? Will you take My cup of peace and let Me reign in your life? Dear child, will you let Me help you?" 

As your distressed and exhausted soul recognizes the strength and peace of God all other voices - of doubt, worry, fear, anxiety, anger, bitterness - fade away. You open the door of your heart and let your Creator in. 

"Take my life and let it be. Consecrated, Lord, to Thee. Take myself and I will be...ever, only, all for Thee."